the blog
he wrote a blog about trudy
one of his closest gurl friends
it made me sad
i couldnt take if off my mind
maybe im jealous?..i dont know
i dont have the right to be jealous
its a relief though coz now
i realized im still capable of jealousy
but what good would it do?
a couple of years debate
between my heart and mind
is not enough to come up with a verdict
jealousy only means one thing
and im not sure im ready to gamble again
everytime someone gets too close
i make sure i pull myself out in time
knowing that when i become emotionally dependent
ill be weak and totally vulnerable
‘guess i pulled out myself too late now
to get affected by a simple write-up
i dont like this
this is not good
i hate this feeling
its making me shit scared…
